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terça-feira, 25 de junho de 2013

DBT Workbook: Distract Yourself From Self-Destructive Behaviours

Illustration for the Website: Pride In Madness



"Self-Destructive Behavior" - Paulo Zerbato/2010


DBT Workbook: Distract Yourself From Self-Destructive Behaviours

After Radical Acceptance comes Distraction!

The first exercise is identifying ways that I would be willing to distract myself. The book listed 10 possibilities and chose to try 7 of them.
  • Write on yourself with a red marker, red pain, red nail polish (have done in the past).
  • Draw faces of people you hate on balloons and then pop them.
  • Write letters to people you hate or to people who have hurt you.
  • Throw foam balls, socks or pillows against a wall as hard as you can.
  • Scream into a pillow (have done in the past).
  • Stick pins in a voodoo doll or other soft object.
  • Cry (have done in the past…obviously).

I tried writing a letter yesterday when I was angry but I ended up writing how I can’t change anything because the person won’t change so we may forever be in this cycle and I just became more upset…..
I did not pick any Distractions that require pain. I don’t care if the damage isn’t permanent, I want to begin to train my brain to not respond to pain as a stress reliever. I’ve done the ice cube and hated how all I could think about was hopefully causing permanent damage by freezing something. I’ve tried digging my nails into my skin and just ended up drawing blood. The worst is the rubber band. Fine, the bruises go away but I hate having to look at the welts and the purple of my skin that still take a few days to go away. The pain tactics need to STOP!

I’m not one to gradually go off of something. I need to stop a behaviour right away. I quit smoking cold turkey and took the shit that came with nicotine withdrawal and I didn’t die so not having pain wont kill me either even though it feels like it.

I can’t believe I’ve trained my brain to associate relief with pain. How did that happen? I’ve been thinking lately about how stupid it is that we need to feel hurt and sometimes almost die to feel like we’re alive. Sounds like a contradiction….needing death to feel alive. I guess it’s a reminder but still.

Anyways, this is the skill that I will really need to practice.



Check the link:

http://prideinmadness.wordpress.com/2012/04/22/dbt-workbook-distract-yourself-from-self-destructive-behaviours/






sábado, 15 de junho de 2013

Caricaturas - Jorge Amado & Luiz Gonzaga

Caricaturas de Jorge Amado e de Luiz Gonzaga
Técnica: Giz de cera preto sobre papel.



"Jorge Amado" - Paulo Zerbato/12


Jorge Leal Amado de Faria (Itabuna, 10 de agosto de 1912 — Salvador, 6 de agosto de 2001) foi um dos mais famosos e traduzidos escritores brasileiros de todos os tempos.
Sua obra é responsável por tornar conhecida a Bahia - seus costumes e cultura - para o restante dos brasileiros, até então centrados no eixo Rio-São Paulo.
Ele é o autor mais adaptado da televisão brasileira, verdadeiros sucessos como Tieta do Agreste, Gabriela, Cravo e Canela e Teresa Batista Cansada de Guerra são criações suas, além de Dona Flor e Seus Dois Maridos e Tenda dos Milagres. A obra literária de Jorge Amado conheceu inúmeras adaptações para cinema, teatro e televisão, além de ter sido tema de escolas de samba por todo o Brasil. Seus livros foram traduzidos em 55 países, em 49 idiomas, existindo também exemplares em braille e em fitas gravadas para deficientes visuais.
Jorge Amado foi superado, em número de vendas, apenas por Paulo Coelho mas, em seu estilo - o romance ficcional -, não há paralelo no Brasil. Em 1994 viu sua obra ser reconhecida com o Prêmio Camões.








"Luiz Gonzaga" - Paulo Zerbato/12


Luiz ‘Lua’ Gonzaga ‘Gonzagão’ do Nascimento (Exu, 13 de dezembro de 1912 – Recife, 2 de agosto de 1989) foi um compositor popular brasileiro, conhecido como o Rei do Baião. Foi uma das mais completas, importantes e inventivas figuras da música popular brasileira. Cantando acompanhado de sua sanfona, zabumba e triângulo, levou a alegria das festas juninas e dos forrós pé-de-serra, bem como a pobreza, as tristezas e as injustiças de sua árida terra, o sertão nordestino, ao resto do país, numa época em que a maioria desconhecia o baião, o xote e o xaxado.
Admirado por grandes músicos, como Dorival Caymmi, Gilberto Gil, Raul Seixas, Caetano Veloso, entre outros, o genial instrumentista e sofisticado inventor de melodia e harmonias, ganhou notoriedade com as antológicas canções "Baião" (1946), "Asa Branca" (1947), "Siridó" (1948), "Juazeiro" (1948), "Qui Nem Jiló" (1949) e "Baião de Dois" (1950).


http://pt.wikipedia.org/wiki/Luiz_Gonzaga





sábado, 8 de junho de 2013

Demons In Their Suitcases – MKs And The Occult

My illustration for the Blog: Michèle Phoenix




"The Weight Of Oppression" - Paulo Zerbato/2010



DEMONS IN THEIR SUITCASES – MKs And The Occult

There were ghouls, witches and zombies wandering around my neighborhood Wednesday night. Some wore pink sneakers under their torn bed sheets. Others had lollipop smudges on their chins. All held bags and baskets at arms’ length, hoping their harmless evilness would score them extra loot.
But there is nothing harmless about evil.  Neither in the orange-decorated cul-de-sacs of the Chicago suburbs nor in the remote villages of Africa, Asia or South America.  Though we expect witch doctors and magic spells to be rarer in the western world than in primitive cultures, I can vouch from growing up in France and living in Germany and the States that mediums, curses and dangerous experimentation with the spirit world are alive and well in countries that consider themselves modern and sophisticated.

I’ve also been involved in MK ministry long enough to know for a fact that a good number (a majority?) of missionaries’ kids have been exposed to something satanic at some point in their overseas lives.  The screaming voices that follow a knock on the door in the middle of the night.  The chanting of satanic rituals taking place just down the road.  The atrocities committed to appease vindictive gods.  All within eyesight and earshot of young souls.  All with the potential to dig deep into their subconsciouses and anchor there with dark fears and profound disquiet.  Some MKs carry their brushes with the occult inside them, finding their faith, their emotional stability, their relational abilities and mental health weakened or entrapped by the unseen forces of their past.

Brette writes:  While I was living in Bali, Indonesia, we were told to be careful of anything we might buy or acquire that could have demonic attachments to them. I knew enough not to buy any amulets or anything that might have had blessings or curses done to them. But before I left the country, I bought a handmade wooden puppet, a big part of the Balinese culture. When I got back to Texas, however, I was having very disturbing dreams about people I knew in Indonesia and demonic presences. I was also experiencing a “teasing spirit” that would do things like turn the lights on or off in my house, or open doors I had closed. I told my parents about it, and we all prayed that we would find what was causing this. We all felt that my puppet had some sort of attachment to it.  We burned it in our backyard and I instantly stopped having nightmares and the “teasing spirit” stopped.

Another MK I’ll call Jenny went on a six-week mission trip to a remote part of Africa when she was seventeen.  It wasn’t long before she started hearing stories about the village’s witch doctor, a man whose powers were strong enough to force his “subjects” to kill their own mothers.  Jenny eventually ran into him, and she describes making eye-contact with him as “staring into the face of evil.”

When she returned to the States, all was not well.  Despite an active faith, Jenny found herself crippled by months of severe depression and an overwhelming desire to end her own life.  Her nights were plagued with vivid dreams in which evil (in multiple forms) assaulted her subconsious.  She simply could not extricate herself from the grip of that witch doctor’s power.

Even in the relatively safe context of Kandern, Germany, some of my former students witnessed witchcraft taking place in firelit rituals in the forests after dark and watched the entire Black Forest area observing Fasching—a cultural celebration of immoral behavior that ends with the symbolic casting of demons into the sky.

Just how deeply can believers be affected by contact with the occult?  To the uninitiated, what Brette and Jenny endured might look like possession—the type of demonic control trivialized in movies and insipid television shows.  But most theologians argue that believers cannot be possessed.  That which God has filled cannot be emptied out and refilled by the forces of evil, no matter how powerful they are.  But Christians can be oppressed.  They can be lied to, pummeled, teased and tormented by envoys of the prince of darkness.  (Please see bibliography below for more ample biblical explanations.)



Mark Anderson, a former missionary to France whose Wheaton-based ministry now centers around spiritual warfare, has experienced sights and sounds most of us would dismiss as Hollywoodian fare.  He has seen objects move through space, heard demonic voices erupt from unconscious victims and witnessed cursed wooden objects like Brette’s puppet refusing to burn even when repeatedly doused with gasoline.  He has personally battled the evil attacking MKs who carried more than great memories back from the mission field with them.  Spiritual warfare is not a theoretical debate between religious points of view.  It may be abstract, but it is very real, and the devil’s purpose is to dig his “claws” so deeply into our mental, relational, physical and spiritual lives that we cannot extricate ourselves from his grip.

Contrary to what we’re told on little and big screens, there is no such thing as “casual” contact with the occult, yet we blithely invite it into our daily lives, thus exposing our vulnerabilities to its parasitic intentions. Whether it be tantalizing, terrifying or entertaining, any contact with witchcraft, Satanism and other forces of evil puts Christians at risk.  The oppression process will look different depending on the strategy that particular spirit employs and the weakness it senses in its victim.  The spirit may begin by warping and deconstructing us to such a degree that we become incapable of fighting back by the time we realize what’s happened.  It may lure us with lies, entice us so deeply into sin that we can’t see our way back out, then blast us with paralyzing guilt.  It may tempt us with objects, like Brette’s wooden puppet, that are imbued with dark powers.  It will blind us to their influence while it takes over our ability to resist impulses, robs us of health and sanity, or alienates us from all that is good and satisfying.  It can cause unbearable emotional turmoil, perversions of the mind, physical ailments and unexplainable violent/irrational reactions.

In order to make discernment even more difficult, evil will often bind itself to other “human conditions” and remain undetected as the source of the affliction.  It may see mental illness as an entrance point and use that disguise to sow destruction.  It may discover a natural weakness like sexual desire and balloon that into something irresistible and damaging.  It may find fertile soil in unbridled ambition, anger or pride.  Whatever the weakness we expose, it will exploit.  But it is too insidious to identify itself with a pitchfork and horns.  It will lie just beneath the surface of our ability to see it, thus adding self-loathing and society’s judgment to its already crippling power.

In a CSI-saturated world, we’re all looking for the easy Q-tip test that will determine the nature of whatever afflicts us.  Add a solution and if it turns pink, it’s mental illness.  If it turns yellow, it’s hormonal imbalance.  If it turns green, it’s criminal, blue, it’s emotional and black, it’s satanic.  But there is no such test.  Though so many mental illnesses are biological or psychiatric, some are directly linked to spiritual oppression.  Though many violent criminals can trace their behavior back to victimization and desensitization, some are acting out under demonic possession.  Though sexual perversion can often be traced to media’s influence and the dehumanization of women, it can also be linked to occultic control.

I’m delving into this difficult topic because of the number of emails I’ve received from MKs who have expressed their fear that demons may be attacking them—and their urgent need to know more about a subject that is sadly too taboo.  Though their lives have been steeped in the spiritual, they feel resourceless in their battle, afraid to utter their suspicions and unable to help themselves.  Some of them are mired in untenable anxiety and sleeplessness.  Others are incapable of cutting their ties to the past and living in the present. Yet others find themselves sabotaging every good thing in their lives, harming others and themselves, or plagued by irrational fury they can’t control.  It’s for them that I’ve embarked on my own journey of discovery and for their sake that I’m writing on a topic so few wish to address.

So…


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The Darkness Inside Your Mind Reveals The Light

Illustration for the Blog: Rambles de Remdog



- Paulo Zerbato/2012




Check out the link:

http://rem-dog.tumblr.com/






sexta-feira, 7 de junho de 2013

Self-Expression Is Overrated


My Illustration for the Website: Wattpad



Poem. Sometimes, what you do is never good enough, and things from the heart don't fit in a commercialised world. You're wrong, because it's not what the public wants to see, so automatically no good.

Cover image used: http://fineartamerica.com/featured/self-expression-paulo-zerbato.jpg


"Self-Expression" - Paulo Zerbato/2011







Self-Expression Is Overrated


Check out this great poem on the link:

http://www.wattpad.com/8471231-self-expression-is-overrated#.UbFU5vmG1vU








quinta-feira, 6 de junho de 2013

My Self-Portrait


My (fake) Profile to Website: Yatedo







"Salvador Dalí -  M.C. Escher - Pablo Picasso And I" 
- Paulo Zerbato/2013


My self-portrait with overlapping images of the artists who have influenced my artworks: Salvador Dalí - M.C. Escher - Pablo Picasso






domingo, 2 de junho de 2013

Corpus Christi

My drawings and paintings in the streets to celebrate the festival of Corpus Christi in Vitória Brasil (80's) ... My hometown









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